Lost

Today was a day that I felt lost.  All I did was search the web, stalk a few people on face book I have not seen for awhile and just stop to read the blog of my cousin.  That was when it happened, ... I felt that feeling of being lost.  Lives that I was a huge part of are no longer on my radar, people whom I talked or hung out with are moving on (which they are allowed to do) but being a bystander in Alberta was really hard today.

I look at the joys that my cousin, his wife and two kids are having and part of me wants to whine I was once apart of that process...yes I have a super husband and my life is good but lately the call of BC is strong.  I miss my lattes, walks on the beach with friends, having a gym really close by etc.  Now instead I play with long drives, a trailer and sunny, winter days.  Yup definitely a pity party for me.  So I decided to change my day to a salute to all the people who are still important to me and whom  I love even though we may not have seen or been in contact for awhile.

My family whom I miss tons, my cousin Brian and his wife Yvette who together created the vandopoly with me long time ago (special membership only!) and whom have a special piece of my heart always!.  To my sisters who get to hear me rant way to much for their own good (sorry ladies), to my friends Kara, Maria and Renay, whose lives are busy but still who find time for me.  To my friends in Alberta who also put up with much.  To my cousin Carolyn, who is the bestest ever no matter what!  To my brother who can make me laugh in an instant, love ya man!

Finally to God who through everything keeps blessing me with excellent people everywhere.  So thanks for listening to the lost talk. hugs everyone!